July 28, 2009

  • Long Time..

    it's been a while.. not much has been really going on.. comic-con was this last weekend.. i didn't get to go, but a lot of my friends did.. they said it was really fun.. next year, i'll definitely have to go.. i always end up putting off early registration, and by the time the con comes around it's already too late.. i dont know.. i guess i should be more exciting for events like that.. but i've just been in sort of a funk lately.. i guess amanda was right.. xanga is the place where emo thoughts go to die, haha..

    i guess i've been trying to not let my thoughts get the best of me.. i'm doing alright, for the most part.. i mean, i'll live.. but, some days are better than others.. and then there are the days where every waking moment is filled with anguish and despair.. loneliness and an immense sense of loss..

    your birthday was a couple of weeks ago.. i never got to wish you a happy birthday.. for as long as i've known you.. even when we weren't together or really talking to each other.. i always made the effort to at least wish you a happy birthday..

    but not this year..

    and it makes me sad that it's come to this.. i think that's why i haven't been around here much lately.. this blog is filled with thoughts and memories of you.. and as much as i try to erase you from my life.. i can't, for the life of me, imagine ever getting rid of these entries.. i figure, maybe one day, i can look back to this blog and maybe write a new york times best selling love story..

    but of course, in my book.. there'd be a happy ending..